As I sit here meditating, I'm feeling so alone. I'm not sure if this feeling will ever go away. Even when I am in a room full of people, I feel like no one knows I'm there. It's been almost three years since you walk out of my life. I have not yet found a way to fill that void. This broken heart is stealing away my life. I wake up every morning missing you. I repeat the same routine, and I pass out from exhaustion every night. I not sure how much longer I can continue.
it's a nice sunny Saturday morning. I just finish working out and stopped by one of our favorite places to have breakfast. I'm sitting across from an empty chair again. Please come join me.
I am probably the one person that cares about you the most and you act as if you are afraid of me. I know how much love can sting when it goes wrong. We all make mistakes. However, don't forget how wonderful it felt when you were in love. It's ok to be cautious, but don't deny yourself something that can be so good for us both. We need to talk this through. Don't let anymore time slip away.
Thank you for responding to my messages today. It's been a long time since I heard from you.
I would really appreciate whatever time you could give me. We should talk.
Do you remember when we met? I had butterflies and felt like I was on a cloud. I felt like that again when I heard your voice today.
I hope someday you'll see I really do love you.
I'm here, waiting......
Please Don't Walk Away
There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I think about the quiet times we spent together, holding each other in the early morning hours. Many times you turned to me and said, "I love this". I remember every moment we spent together, more than three years, I can remember every detail. I can still feel every curve of your body as we stood in the shower, holding one another after we made love.
I remember sitting in Imo's living room and you looked up at me and said. "Please don't ever let me go, no matter what happens." I promised you I wouldn't, and I am still here today, reaching out to you. Honey, I love you so much. I'm asking you now, please don't walk away. Everyday I still have tears running down my cheek, missing you so much my heart feels like it is torn apart.
Tomorrow you will be another decade old. I don't want to waste anymore time away from you. Please, talk to me. Without you neither one of us is complete. I'm sorry for not being there all of the time, but I can't continue without you. Please save me. Please save us. I miss us. Please don't walk away...
I had some time to do a little thinking when I took a business trip recently. There's not much else to do when you're flying at 30,000 feet.
I really wish I made some better decisions in the past. I am not really living right now. It's hard to be truly happy when every night you go home to an empty bed, not waking up next to the one that you love. Some of the choices I made were due to responsibilities. Either way, the results are not the ones I wanted. I really believed that after a short period of time we would have been happy and together.
Do you realize it's coming up on six years since we've met. I remember that first day like it was yesterday. It was like magic.
I don't want to leave this earth without spending my remaining days, years, and hopefully decades without you by my side. Do you feel the same way?
Right now, knowing what I know, if you asked me, I would drop everything and come be with you, wherever that took me.
It isn't every day you find that person that rocks your world, let alone expecting it to happen twice.
What can we do? Talk to me, please. Not only did you complete me, I filled in the pieces that you were missing. I know how smart you are, but we are both ten times better together.
Who I am with you is who I really want to be. I said it before. You make me a better person. I miss us.
I haven't posted recently, not because I wasn't thinking about you, but I was hoping to stay busy enough that I wouldn't. It did not work.